Where does this path of uncertainty leads to?
Where’s the assurance?
Why the coldness?
What mistakes were made, lord;
Tell me,I’ll gladly amend them, if they were right.
I forgot the definition of toleration.
I had made countless attempts to understand it and carry it out.
Maybe he’s right.
This place- it doesn’t belong to me,
No,not anymore.
These pernicious lies and rants.
She’s going to alienate herself away from this blanket of cruelty and lies.
One more week to Chinese New Year! 
Can’t wait for the … erm 4-5 days holidays!
Away from the heaps of homework & tests, away from reality !
I’ll just bear with it for one more week.
THE CA WEEK = BITCH WEEK.
I’m very very very happy,excited,enthusiastic,zealous……..(insert any other words here)
looking forward to Friday! 
Meeting up with Wan Ting WIFE, Doreen Stella Amelia!
I haven’t seen them in like for centuries! We need to catch up…./raise!
omg, can’t wait.
Programs lined up for Chinese New Year.
Prolly going M’sia for the 4 days holidays…
however, I’ll still try try try to meet up with the girls to go Ms Tan’s, Mr Teo’s house!
angbaos………HEHEHE.
rejoice for the occasion!
School tmrw, yet again.
School ends at 4pm with PE. 
Cjc has a criteria for Napha this year, we have to at least achieve a silver award.
if not it’s considered a fail.
I’ve got high self esteem, truckloads of confidence…..GOLD
it’s the last year we’re going to have napha.(unless we do badly for A levels TOUCHWOOD.)
so I want to do very very very well. 
achieved 12.40 min for two rounds around CJ for the last pe.
okay, slow……….but it’s a pass- below 14 min.
not to mention that jeanette and I walked + ran.
hello? Cj has this very very very steep slope.
If we’re going to run up that hill…..& run out of energy halfway up,
we’re going to roll down that hill okay……….like jack & jill.-.-
& PE keeps us fit, okay, I’ll try to love PE.
Cross Country is coming up next month.
f-i-t.
Though the new year it’s here, the goodies are tempting….
there’s still a need to resist the temptation
in case we grow so fat that we can’t run and we need to roll…..
ok, whatever.
a result of overload of homework & activities.
Math CA this week….Definite Integrals & Differential Equations.
I’ve completely forgotten how to do Definite Integrals. It’s so boring.
Not as if we’re going to use it in future. If I’m the MOE, i’ll just extract all these topics.
WE JUST NEED TO LEARN HOW TO COUNT MONEY TO SURVIVE IN SOCIETY!
isn’t that true?!
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This year’s an important year.
Though there’s a need to be stressed, we still need to relax.
All work no play makes YuXuan a dull girl.
Though there’s a need to relax, there’s a need to be stressed.
No,I’m not contradicting myself. ok, maybe I am.
Did a gp essay on gender discrimination yesterday.
3 page essay , proud of myself.
The future of the world will be a woman’s world. what are your views?
It’s a cool topic, because it’s a controversial issue.
and the future is malleable, anything can happen due to the dramatic trends,
prolly converging on or contradicting each other.
But, I believe there will be a day when women completely switch roles with men.
Let’s see if I’ll live till then.
& Poly people are damn …..%^&*(
they just have had their holidays and their holidays are coming soon AGAIN.
Not to mention they’re having their study week….
JC only has study days…..which is like one or two days.
this is pathetic.
BUT IT’S JUST ONE MORE YEAR!
however, i don’t want time to pass so quickly,
i’m not prepared to face the exams yet.
Yet, I want time to pass quickly and get over with it.
huhhhuh.
I don’t understand how come there are still people who are able to have a whale of their time
at this point in time where most of us are drowning.
Probably………these people are what we call closet muggers.
Talking about closet muggers, I really hate it when they study at home
have external tuition, and they come to school and disrupt lectures/lessons/…..
It’s really annoying.
Especially when people start talking during lectures.
It’s really really distracting especially when they talk nonsense. :@
Then we can’t hear the lecturer, can’t copy our notes
and we walk out of the theatre without learning anything. -.-
bitch to the max i swear.
I’m not whining or what, but………… it’s really annoying.
Put yourself in my shoes ( I just washed mine, it’s clean )…
okay, i’m done with complaining. :S
BACK TO STUDYING.
I WILL BE BACK…ON THURSDAY OR FRIDAY.
hi earthlings, it’s been almost a week since we last met.
this week has been a tedious one, but i’m still alive.
so anyway, we had the econs ” test ” today.
i slept at 7pm and woke up at 12am to study.
& what the shit.
it wasn’t a CA anymore.
we were allowed to discuss with our partners and use our notes…..
wt….h.
$%^&*( efforts wasted.
met up with shunyu,zhanning,jinhui,yuliang,chinseng&weisheng & shunting on tues
to celebrate sy and zn’s belated birthday.
it has been really 1 decade since we last met.
caught up with the guys until we were shooed out of the restaurant.
oh yes, went to nkf dialysis centre before that.
was rather apprehensive as shunting & i approached it.
didn’t know how the patients will react, whether they will be friendly…or whether they’ll turn us away.
thankfully, all of them were really friendly including the nurses!
obviously………….i’m so attractive.
*rolls eyes*
felt rather fortunate to not be in similar situation as them.
they could still remain so optimistic despite their conditions.
they really deserve my respect & i do admire them alot.
don’t ask why i’m so free to do ” bo liao” stuffs…..chinseng asked me that.bitch.
it’s just half an hour to an hour per week, why not!
just sacrifice a little of your facebooking time.. it’s just a small sacrifice.
anyway….
CA week is next week…chemistry & math. wish me luck.
huhhhhhuhhh.
i’m damn shagged.
i’ve been leaving my house at 6.15am every single day for this week,
thanks to the new incoming j1s.e
excos have to reach school early to do morning duty…… and it was really hectic.
we even missed SD period to help distribute orientation packages.
alot of our time are taken up this week because of cca.
& there was cca open house as well.
but i went off halfway due to medical appointment….don’t say that i’m so lucky ok.
cca open house ended at like 4.30…
and i only saw the doctor at like 4.30…and reached home at 7pm.
was really a busy week this week.
and today we were supposed to celebrate bitchy siew yee’s birthday.
we bought a cake and present….
the best thing was that she didnt turn up in school because she was sick.
omg, almost slaughter ,kill,murder( use whatever wrd u want ) her!!!!!!
in the end, tharshini and i went ALL THE WAY TO JURONG FOR HER. :@
because the cake has limited shelf life…additionally, it’s a fruit cake..so.. :@:@:@
siew yee u suck.
we braved the rain for you……was drenched from like head to toe……..
BITCH.-.-
anyway, happy birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyy! <3
stop being horny and contaminating my mind every now and then.
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globalisation has indeed made things scary though it made communication easier.
it has also made it easier for several teachers to intrude students’ privacy. :S
ok fine, there’s no privacy in internet.
so i shld say globalisation has made it easier for teachers to stalk students .
accessing facebooksssss, blogs..etc.
i thought the only free teachers are mr teo & mr lim! hahahaha!
miss them alot though!
and and and NEXT WEEK IS CHINESE NEW YEAR!
and also next week i got medical appointment…
which allows me to skip mr ravi’s class ( * takes pongpongs and cheerrrrrrrr -.- )
however…11 feb is mr teo’s court trial. i only realised it today!
bitch man, i want to go.
huiping & i had already said from centuries ago that we want to go.
hopefully i’ll be able to attend the hearing.
it’s the final hearing already i think.
& Mr Manoj will be the lawyer obviously. /raiseeeee!
it’s a rare chance , i’m not ……… desperate ok.
he’s really charismatic, even huiping says so!
hopefully ……….. we get to see him. teehee.
chemistry tuition tmrw morning. kill.me.now.
best of luck to all for CA next week! !
immersed in thoughts,
all those questions in my mind,
and those pernicious lies,
they should be eradicated together with this excruciating pain.
you never heard the prayers muttered under my breath,
you never sense my fear,
you don’t know the hidden truth behind this,
you never open your eyes wide to see.
one day, you’ll understand..the pure intentions of mine.
i’ve got the worst econs teacher on earth.
informing us about work today& expecting us to complete them by tmrw.
one such example is the tutorial which consists of 4 essays and 2 case studies.
what the shit. the best thing was tt he didn’t go through it.
i did the tutorial till midnight.
bitch to the max.
got an sms today by jeanetta.
we’ve got a ca test this week. how last min this teacher can be…..
would slaughter him if the claws of justice didn’t prevent me from doing so.
anyway, had a rather productive weekend.
tuition & completed many revision at the same time.
super exhausted.
loads of stuffs to be done this week.
looking forward to chinese new year.
need more time to spend with family & friends instead of work and work.
&last minute meet up with wife,exwife,meh,shit& jun was great!
see you guys real soon!<3
a busy week ahead……going to return home late on certain days.
need to stay back and do CCA banner tmrw, what a bitch.
need to go for nkf session tmrw at night. i’m not whining, but more than happy to help them.
alot of cca shit stuff to be done.
i really feel like withdrawing myself from the cca position and everything.
i know it’s a “slack” cca to everyone, but you don’t know how much work we do.
the councillors cet all the credit & we do all the jobs.
reminds me of nike sweatshop.-.-
& we don’t gain anything. we gain nothing at all.
& in addition, we have lousy cca-in-charge( no, not talking about zhiyoong.)
zhiyoong is really nice & has rendered alot of assistance to us & has been a great leader.
it’s just some people………morons….:@
1 more year…11 months to be exact.
hang on there.
eyebags forming & getting worse.
how long more can i hang on.
it’s just 11months, been motivating myself,pushing myself, encouraging myself.
but sometimes, my aims seem like the impossible.
it’s not easy..
i know it’s hard & i’m glad i’ve got friends with me with the common goal.
we shall all work hard & fight till the end.
i’m not giving up, not now.
never.
nothing else is going to affect me, i hope.
including….
hi earthlings,
this is an extremely quick update.
gotta rush off soon for last lesson of yoga
& to meet up my dearest fellow bitches, maryann,averil,wan,weisheng,yijun,lau!
can’t wait.
anyway, it has been a busy week.
er, rather busy week.
CA week is the week after next,
no more playing/fun next week, serious work to be done.
ironically, there’s cca open house next week – loads of work to be done as well.
the juniors have come in – troubles. :\
alright, no harm intended though.
was rather amazed during cca meeting by some………morons.
i didn’t mention any name, so no one can sue me for defamation.
going to mention some events that happen though, infer yourself.
ms mook : ok, meeting has ended, you’all can go home and do your tutorials ok.
huisian : but ms mook, science students have no tutorials or homework! they have no tutorials and are very free.
no, i didn’t call her a moron specifically. you can infer yourself.
this is what i THINK are types of people with EXTREMELY limited knowledge.
people who know nothing and call herself Miss- KNOW IT ALL. :\
I thought arts students are supposed to not only be vocal, but also possessed brains WITH juices.
maybe she’s an exception.
strictly my opinion, sue me if you dare.
Anyway, back to topic.
Chinese new year is coming.
If i’m not off to m’sia, i hope to be able to meet up with friends.
doreeeen & co. it’s been a long time. /raise hehehehe.
visit ms tannnn, mr teooooo etc.
hahaha, can’t wait.
but 2/3 weeks after cny, we have common test.
ah life.
what a typical jc student life = no life.
i forgot what i want to blog about.
OH YES.
during Mr Kang’s lesson today,
mr kang was asking me some qn… i forgot what.
& suddenly i felt my butt vibrating. and i was rather stunned.
i ignored his question and turned to yinghui,
” do you feel vibration?”
I thought it was my handphone or something or maybe just me,
but she felt it too!
soon the whole class felt it.
Most probably the vibrations were caused by tremors prolly caused by an earthquake
in a neighbouring country.
hopefully, not much damage was done.
no, not making a big fuss out of something small.
but! it’s the first time we felt such stuffs ok.
lydia and i began observing the water in our bottles.
lydia : shake alr shake alr.
me : omg, eh keep our handphones inside our pockets. later trapped under the rubble still can contact people.
* lydia and i searched for our phones frantically and put them in our pockets*
LOL.
ok, sounds stupid but….hahahahahah.
then i think it was siewyee or someone.
siew yee : omg, look at the fan.
the fan was shaking and looked as if it was going to drop.
was rather shocked.
cause i remembered an incident that stella mentioned.
the fan in their classroom fell after a lightning.
i was OMG. :S :S :S
and there was a recent incident in a nearby food centre
where a fan suddenly dropped from the ceiling
and injured a couple.
BLOOOOD SPURTED OUT OF THEIR FACES. OMGGGGG.
okay, it may seem exaggerating, but it’s not ok.
wait till that fan drops . :S
the first one to die will be allister who is sitting under the fan. hahaha.
ok, rather an ” enriching” experience.
but no so if it was a serious earthquake or something.
hopefully it’s not.
& the haiti incident is really disturbing,
esp when the govt said
” don’t give us aid. give us money.”
rather…weird.
alright, will make a comment about it soon.
needa rushhhh!
damn damn damn damn exhausted.
reached home after midnight yesterday.
by the time i removed makeup & all the shit, i slept at 2am.
i was a dead piece of shit by the time i reached school.
omg, damn damn damn damn tired.
wedding was great & sweet.
of course it’s great, $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$_$$$$$$$$$$
fullerton hotel, huhhhhh my wedding will be held at…erm,sentosa IR.
ok whatever.
damnnnnn tired still.
furthermore, school ends at 4pm today, with PE.
which made it worse.
uhhhuh.
eyebags....as a result of being too hardwrking. yeah right.
other pictures are up on facebook.
shit to the max man, many stuffs are coming up…..
all the tests and stuffs.
i’m damn shagged.
but i’m still hanging on.
CA before chinese new year, Common test after chinese new year.
No new year.
bitch.
tired.tired.tired.
ugly, not good enough.
MY DEFINITION OF PRETTY CHIO BEST TEEHEEHEHEEHEHHE
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teeheeheeheee winner! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
( take away that library tag or ignore it pls. )
ok whateff.
been wanting to post this but couldn’t be bothered to.
heheheheeh.
hahaha. alright.
busy week it had been.
but still took time off to go for yoga lesson & meet up with shunting bimbo.
uhhhuh.
don’t look forward to the next week.
school ends late….projects…..medical appointments…..
huhhuh.
Formative assessments & all the shit tests this week.
noooooooooooooooooo
i feel like skipping school tmrw omgzxz.
have a wedding dinner to attend today & prolly will reach hme after midnight……..
how can i even wake up for school tmrw!
& i really hate dressing up.
BUT IM A GIRL OKAY.
it’s like……make up………prettypretty dress…..
& most prob i’ll be wearing my prom dress…..noob i know but it’s a “once in a blue moon ” event what.
:S :S :S
the thing is, i haven’t even completed my gp homework.
bye.
it’s finally… friday.
2 weeks have flied past, but it seemed like 2 months have passed.
i was really more demoralised by the criteria paper that niko showed me.
to get into different faculties, but it was already expected.
why, when i should be feeling motivated.
I SHOULD BE FEELING MOTIVATED, now, yes now.
it’s hard.
but no matter how much it takes, i will still work for it
and give it my best of the bestest.
at least i can proudly say that i tried, at least i tried.
straight As, not easy at all,
especially when we’re competing with people from renowned JCs
all the muggers from rj,hcjc…
we’re already losing out since we’re from a lousier jc.
okay, i admit that i’m extremely result-orientated.
but, this is what society is demanding for today!
you can’t blame me.
Even polytechnics are academically inclined now.
it’s because of competition & more competition.
& my class especially- we are losing out.
i’m not blaming our teachers for being lousy though they are.
it’s just our misfortune that we are not being banded/change teachers.
& i really really hate some teachers in our class.
:@ :@ :@
pissed to the max.
it’s just one year, one year & i won’t have to see his face again.
not much time left.
time is flying…in the sky.
sick to the max.
so much work to be completed.
( econs proj sucks, the teacher sucks more.the teacher’s attitude sucks even more. the teacher’s teaching sucks the most. overall, he’s the biggest sucker)
tired, shagged, exhausted.
I SHOULD BE ENERGISED RIGHT NOW.
i miss all the bitches whom i’ve not met for a dozen years.
minyan….amelia chrismin etc etc
wanting <3, averil, laura, mariz, maryann,weisheng, yijun, alicia, agacia, noel, serena & everyone .
really having a tight schedule now.
especially with the fact that cca orientation is coming too.
next week formative assessment,
week 6 CA week
week 10 Common test.
Bye Chinese New year, see you next year.
won’t be able to meet you this year……
It’s just 11 months. & everything will be over.
20 march 2010, that’s when we know our fate.
time flies. tightening my grip.
so how was school? not exactly perfect but not that bad thou.
crossing my fingers since morning.
too emotional, got too emotional.
but things are fine now.
Academically wise, things have been ok.
Having ample time to rest and do my homework & revise everyday’s lectures as well.
My butt has been stuck on the chair since I’ve reached home until like now.
studying of course, no distractions ok.
p-r-a-i-s-e me.
bet 5 cents that tmrw’s gonna be a tiring exhausting shitty day.
cause sch ends at 1, cca starts at 2pm & ends at 9pm at SMU.
gotta wake up frigging early on thursday for morning duty.
how great.
have to serve two hours of detention on friday as i’ve mentioned in my previous post.
glad that it’s just two hours.
it’s ok, i’m still standing strong.
who says i can’t handle these unchallenging challenges.
tedious it may be, but uh, i’m much more tougher than you think i’m.
Not going to be posting for the rest of the week, till prolly weekends.
A levels, priority right now.
Felt really relieved after worrying for what seemed like an eternity.
Glad he’s fine, though not completely out of trouble, but he still has a future ahead.
really hope that he’ll repent & not let history repeat itself again.
thank God, ‘ve been prayin since yesterday & yes, things are fine, for now.
Hi May, I take back my words which are hurled at you yesterday.
Instead of making you nurse my wound for 10 days, stabbing you killing you……
I SHALL KISS YOU TEN TIMES DAILY FOR TEN DAYS!
LOL.
uh huhhhhhh.it’s a secret not meant for you to be known.
I’m glad I made the choice & May gave me the courage.
& I didn’t lose this opportunity. golden opportunity laid by a golden goose.
this is an indescribable feeling. hahahaha.
oh so anyway, i wasn’t supposed to touch the laptop today……….
BUT.
Mr Kang was being really nice to me & I was really lucky. yeah ” lucky”
out of 24 people in the class, only 6 were chosen to do research.
& 1 of them is me, & it’s by tmrw. what the shit.
research will be on Diabetes type 1 & type 2.
what is it about and is there a type 3?!?!?!?!
name a renowned person who got diabetes. -.-
ass to the max.
second research will be on Cold War.
this was what i studied in history in 2008, but i can’t recall anything.
who’s involved in cold war… middle east israel & all the nonsense.
Additionally, i also have a GP article reflection to do.
& the topics are restricted to the commentary & review section of straits times.
Boring to the max, i’m not interested in google & china…………………..
I realise i can only write when i post it on a blog.
that’s the reason for the existence of my article blog.
it’s extremely tedious for me to sit down and write on a blank piece of paper
as compared to typing on the laptop.
it’s a bad habit, i know.
need to change, but not now.
anyway, we are living in a globalised world where technology is so advanced.
For all you may know, paper may be extinct in future!
in addition, i need to mention how bitchy Mr Kang is.
For promo exams 2009, he warned us that we shouldn’t lift from the passage
for every lift he counted, we will get an hour detention.
and he really mean it.
so i got TWO LIFTS.
for the words ” ALZEHMIR ( HOWEVER U SPELL IT ) DISEASE” & ” TERRORISM”
how could you even possibly rephrase this?
this sucks man.
& i’m punished with two hours detention which is considered rather lenient
because there are many more people who have 6-7 hours
& dearest shawn had 14 hours detention.
friday’s my detention day. great.
So here i am, up online, genuinely interested to do research.
yeah, sense my sarcasm.
I’m not really busy yet. not that i don’t have work to do.
But I cleared all my homework during the weekends and on friday.
Thank God i didn’t leave everything to the eleventh hour,
if not i will be rushing like some madwoman now.
& AWESOME, i’ve completed Subhas Anandan’s book.
It’s really really awesome & i was really engrossed in reading it for the past 2 days.
Didn’t know he was associated with David Marshall………..cool to the max.
need to rush my work now.
I pray that you’ll be fine, though you are caught by the claws of justice.
you deserved it, yet i don’t want to see your life ruined.
your false statements have exacerbated the situation now.
it’s really heartwrenching to see you such a situation, & ur family too.
I really hope you’ll be fine, you’ll turn over a new leaf & you won’t commit the same mistake again.
your so-called achievements are not anything to vaunt or brag about.
please, voice your plea & mitigation, show your remorse,
show Your Honour that you have regretted your actions.
I pray for a lighter sentence for you though u ought to be punished.
